I know I shouldn't be thinking of this, but the future is looming. Is it better that i get a job at fish lake or maybe with darell in peterson´s plumbing? I want to go to fish lake and escape to the mountains where there´s not a lot of internet connection. I feel like that will save me a lot of temptation. But who knows if i can get that job either. i bet that i could. honestly, the mission is going to leave me ridiculously prepared for a lot of things. i can manage time now (sort of......i´m still working on that). i´m somewhat organized (also still working on that) and i speak SPANISH, (also still owrking on that) i have learned to get along with ANYONE AND EVERYONE. i´ve never had probelms with getting a long with my companions even when i look back on and it realize wow...she was not a very nice person. honestly, i feel like my last comp. hermana peynado left me sort of tramuatized. she was perfect little peynado and president LOVED her to peices but she was really mean to me a lot. not just mean, cruel, and she had a crappy life and circumstances and i´ll give her that she never used that as an excuse and she had a lot of AMAZING qualities. she was really unselfish and a really good person but......i´m till traumatized over a few things that she said or did....and i feel like i can´t talk to anyone about it. presdient loved her. but...i know president loves me too. we had interviews on sauterday and he said that the progress i´ve had is truly one of the most impressive changes that he´s seen in a lot of missionaries. and hna guzman said in her interview ´he LOVES you hermana, when he talks about you his eyes shine and he told me at the end of my training i have to be EXACTLY like you.´ and i was just like ´.........well i don´t think that´s very advisable i´m somewhat insane.´ but president always asks me how i am, if i feel anxious or overwhelmed and such and i sort of had a break down during our weekly planning session but, i´m better now. it´s just because....well, i´ve only got ten weeks left of my mission. and i have a goal of five baptisms (at president´s request i set a goal of how many baptisms i want) and i had two really sure ones for this transfer. i had gerado and rayo and they were both doing so well, then gerado out of the blue wants nothing to do with us and is going to move to mexico city and that poor kid is gone there. he´s just going to get lost in the crowd of dozens of kids just like him there and rayo just barely got back together with her ex and their living together. and they´re planning to get married in december and then have a big catholic wedding...............kill me please.
the good thing is rayo still wants to go to church and get baptized. and supposedly the thirtieth of march people can get married for free here. i don´t know how or why we´re going to go check out in el registro civil today and see what´s up.....i just hope no body gets any big ideas with the guerita asking about free weddings. it´s for a friend, honestly. but we only found one new investigator the last week and i feel like i´ve turned this place upside down and nothings coming up.....so i´m kind of stressed about that. and i don´t get along with my mission leader. i knkow i was just bragging about how i get along with everyone but i have fantazied about pushing him off a bridge or down a well or something.
I would love to be a youth leader. it would be cool. also i´m going to do my personal progress when i get home because....well my blessing says i´m gonna be a young women´s teacher so....hay que set an example and all that.......but after serving a mission i say that i totally deserve that necklace. how many ten hour projects have i done??????? ALL OF THEM.
that´s all i got. oh, and today i have to go look for new shirts because we had a meetingand hna stellmon is a little concerned because she´s seen a lot of informal shirts with the sister missionaries lately.ñ..... so a lot of the shirts i´ve been using basically all of my mission i´ve now been informed they are not appropriate.....KILL ME PLEASE. i have ten weeks left i don´t wanna buy a bunch of lame blouses i´m never gonna wear again. I HATE BLOUSES. but whatever.
lots of love
|this is hermana oli who i´m naming my first child after|
Magic garden we went to last week.